i totally forgot i had a blog.

then i rmb i "killed" it.

i felt that maybe i will just restart this blog without anyone knowing.
coz maybe i'm sian of things.
and maybe need a place to vent.
so i'll be here from time to time.

a medic in air-force.

so many ppl would love to switch their positions in army with me.
true, it has its perks but then like every other thing, there's always the flip side.
i have no qualms abt working hard.
i dun even have qualms abt not working smart.
u give me instructions, i'll follow to the letter and carry it out to the best of my abilities.

but then i'm just tired.
tired that i've lost my way.
tired that i've lost my passion.

i had dreams. aspirations. hope.

but i feel like they had slipped away from me.

now i get thru each day living a facade.
living till the day when i can leave this place.

it's not that bad a place.
or at least it used to be.

this blog is dead.

the end.

nth beats the feeling of playing vball with your team.

the feeling that behind all the shit that u might have to go thru everyday, there's always be this group of ppl who are willing to listen.

not that i'm going thru shit now.

it's hard to feel that at ease.

being at the medical centre, sometimes u are just so free.

especially since IAD and IQA are both over. in case u dunno, they are both audits.
and yes, we kanna audited by 2 different agencies.

and now that it's all over, the medical centre feels so peaceful and relaxed.
even the patient load seem to have decreased.

at dispensary, u tend to be alone, especially when the new IC is away on cover, and the old IC is in ORD mood.
so that leaves me a lot of time to be alone and practically stoning inside.

and when it rains, it becomes like the perfect place to hide and emo.
plus dispensary is right at the end of the medical centre, next to the dental department.

i think i'm becoming a damn emo person, all thx to Jun Chuan.

i think tml is the third sat i'm doing duty in 3 weeks.

i feel so damn sian.

junyu is so like finally going to be back.

melvin is so like finally going to leave for india.

i had a nice dream last night at the medical centre,
despite the snorings and sleep talking from the bed above me.
and the consistent message over the PA system from 3am onwards informing you about the extension of CAT status.

when the dream got to the nice part...

the door slammed, and i woke up.

and realise that dreams are just dreams.

it just isnt reality dude.

i need to touch a vball soon.

my bro just got a new monitor which is wide screen and looks damn nice.